Wednesday, 4th of March. This is killing me. Havent heard from her since last week and I havent sent her any mesages too for 5 days now. Well I'm trying not to send her anything on purpose, prolly she'll notice me not sending messages to her. I checked her friendster awhile ago and its also been 5 days since she last logged in. One word for it, THIS IS F*CKIN HARD! I met a girl this week, a friend of mine is still trying to pimp me. I consider her pretty, she even gave me her number. But nothing about her got me interested or curious. I really dont know why I'm like this on Yan. There's really something about her that I dont see in other girls. And I still know nothing about that something. There were times that I was really losing hope on the situation, but when I look at my phone I see my wallpaper (her smiling pic) I get refreshed. I hope I'd see Yan on the coming days. I wont give up on her and I never will. I can only remember myself falling in love like this once. And I'd want this to be the last. And yes, I'm in love with her.

Currently listening to: Salamin - Sugarfree
Currently feeling: indescribable

I really cant sleep, I've tried drinking milk, counting sheep and even taking a shower but my eyes wont close. I'm listening to my very old OPM playlist right now. I've just noticed that the messages of the older songs are much better than the songs theyre making now. Watching Myx sucks, thats why I switched my mediaplayer on. Every heard of the song Kailan? The original song was from Smokey Mountain and I think a version by MYMP. The song Kailan really caught my attention. This song really suits me. Lines like "Bawat araw sinusundan, di ka naman tumitingin anong aking dapat gawin?" Aww bummer this song really hit me, Its already 4:31 in the morning people. I really feel somethings wrong with me. I've been absent at the gym for 5 days now. "Kailan, kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim, kahit anong aking gawin di mo pinapansin." Another song that I liked was from Janet Basco, You Made Me Live Again. If you dont have any idea about the songs I'm talking about, better ask your mums. These lovesongs were roaming the airwaves before or after EDSA time i think. I love it really, I'll be burning these later to keep in the car.  ÜÜÜ

I know its just 2 months ever since I knew Yan, but there's something in her that I cant get enough of. I termed it as good vibes but my bestfriend called it MAGIC. It's like 4yrs ever since i last felt this. Its almost the same as having butterflies in your tummy, but the size of Enchanted Kingdoms Grand Carousel. LOL. I like Yan so much, but I think she doesnt notice me at all. I send her txt messages when I have the chance. I just feel like I'm talking to a wall or something. Grr probably I'm just expecting too much, but im not. As long as she's fine I'm fine with it. She's just probably not comfy talking to me. Distance is really giving me a hard time (if only she was somewhere near Cavite instead of Mandaluyong). ÜÜÜ

I want to know her more, I want to spend time with her, I want her to know who's the real me, I want to make her smile and other things like that. Whew, writing mushy things like this really helps. I'll write her a letter soon and send it thru LBC. Haha silly me. ÜÜÜ

til here! (and stop laughing at me..)

Currently feeling: depressed